Monday, March 28, 2011

Why Milk or not?

Except for animals under human influence and Western gulls who steal milk from lactating seals, humans are the only known species that drinks the breast milk of another species, and the only known species that continues to drink breast milk into adulthood.

Don’t We Need Milk?

Milk from a cow is as necessary as milk from a pig or a horse or a giraffe. Human breast milk is the perfect food for human babies, while cow’s milk is the perfect food for baby cows. Cow’s milk naturally contains the large amount of hormones and protein needed to turn a 80-pound calf into a 1,000 pound cow in one year. That amount of protein and hormones is not only unnecessary but unhealthy for humans. Because they occur naturally, these hormones are even found in organically produced milk.

The American Dietetic Association supports a dairy-free, vegan diet:

It is the position of the American Dietetic Association that appropriately planned vegetarian diets, including total vegetarian or vegan diets, are healthful, nutritionally adequate, and may provide health benefits in the prevention and treatment of certain diseases.
Besides containing saturated fats, cholesterol, hormones and too much protein, milk is also linked to testicular cancer, breast cancer, and prostate cancer.

Fat, Cholesterol and Protein

Many dairy products tend to be high in saturated fats and cholesterol, which have been linked to heart disease. The American Dietetic Association states:

Features of a vegetarian diet that may reduce risk of chronic disease include lower intakes of saturated fat and cholesterol and higher intakes of fruits, vegetables, whole grains, nuts, soy products, fiber, and phytochemicals.
Milk protein is also a concern, and the protein in milk has been linked coronary deaths and to hardened, narrowed arteries.

Hormones, and Cancer

In 2006, a researcher from the Harvard School of Public Health found a strong link between dairy consumption and hormone-dependent cancers – testes, breast, and prostate. Scientist/physician Ganmaa Davaasambuu believes that the naturally occurring hormones in a pregnant cow’s milk increase the risks for these types of cancer. Milk from cows contains “considerable amounts of female sex hormones,” accounting for 60-80% of estrogens consumed by humans. Although the research focused on dairy, Ganmaa’s findings implicated a variety of animal products, as well as dairy:

Butter, meat, eggs, milk, and cheese are implicated in higher rates of hormone-dependent cancers in general, she said. Breast cancer has been linked particularly to consumption of milk and cheese.
Ganmaa’s findings are not unique. According to dietician George Eisman, in the US, one in six men gets prostate cancer. Only one in 200,000 men gets prostate cancer in China, where dairy is not regularly consumed. Also according to Eisman, breast cancer is highest in the countries with the highest dairy consumption. A study in England found that even within England, the counties with the highest dairy consumption had the highest rates of breast cancer. Eisman states that consuming dairy is “the most abnormal, crazy thing that we do.”

Contaminants in Milk

Contaminants in milk are another serious concern. American milk is banned in the European Union because of added recombinant bovine growth hormone (rBGH). When administered to cows, rBGH causes the cows to produce up to 20% more milk, but also causes the cows to produce more Insulin-like Growth Factor 1 (IGF-1). According to the Organic Consumers Association, some of the rBGH given to cows ends up in the milk. The Cancer Prevention Coalition (CPC) states:

It is highly likely that IGF-1 promotes transformation of normal breast cells to breast cancers. In addition, IGF-1 maintains the malignancy of human breast cancer cells, including their invasiveness and ability to spread to distant organs.
RBGH also increases the risk of mastitis, which sometimes leads to pus, bacteria and blood getting into the milk. Federal law in the US allows up to 50 million pus cells per cup of milk.

If rBGH is so dangerous and is banned in the EU, why is it legal in the US? The CPC believes that, “Monsanto Co., the manufacturer of rBGH, has influenced U. S. product safety laws permitting the sale of unlabeled rBGH milk.”

Another contaminant found in cow’s milk is pesticide residues. Residues are fat soluble, which means they become concentrated in the milk and tissues of animals.

What About Calcium?

While cow’s milk is high in calcium, it is also high in protein. Excess protein in our diets causes calcium to leach out of our bones. Dr. Kerrie Saunders states, “North America has one of the highest consumptions of dairy products, and also the highest incidence of osteoporosis.“ To combat osteoporosis, Saunders recommends exercise and “beans and greens” for a source of calcium that is not excessively high in protein. Ganmaa also recommends getting calcium from green leafy vegetables.

Furthermore, calcium intake may be less important for bone health than we’ve been led to believe. A study by researchers from the Harvard School of Public Health published in 1997 found that increased consumption of milk and other calcium-rich foods by adult women did not reduce the risk of osteoporotic bone fractures. Calcium retention is also important for preventing osteoporosis. Sodium, smoking, caffeine and physical inactivity can all cause us to lose calcium.

Lactose Intolerance
Lactose intolerance is common among many populations, affecting approximately 95 percent of Asian Americans, 74 percent of Native Americans, 70 percent of African Americans, 53 percent of Mexican Americans, and 15 percent of Caucasians. Symptoms, which include gastrointestinal distress, diarrhea, and flatulence, occur because these individuals do not have the enzyme lactase that digests the milk sugar lactose. For those who can digest lactose, its breakdown products are two simple sugars: glucose and galactose. Nursing children have active enzymes that break down galactose. As we age, many of us lose much of this capacity. Babies and small children can be allergic to milk, and experience symptoms including ear infections, skin rashes, and digestive problems..


While animal rights advocates are vegan for ethical reasons, it’s important to know that cow’s milk is not necessary for human health and foregoing dairy or reducing intake appears to have a lot of health benefits.!


Related reading: Nutrition, facts, pros and cons


Envy..

why is this emotion so hard to let go..
I dont even want any of the things I envy some people for.. it is just material and fluffy happiness... Just a carry over from my old self...
let go.. let go.... It is a very misplaced envy.
I should envy the people who are doing so much more, for so many more.. and not get depressed by it but use that as a motivation... some traits are just so difficult to change.. but the brain is a very malleable thing... just takes time and effort to make the change permanent.

It is the same thing I have to apply everyday, for my stress and fear responses. Train the brain to associate those responses to neutral or likeable instead of fear and anxiety. it is a loooong process. Like if you see a snake/lion/any danger and your instant response is to run away, but instead you have to stand there and say hi to it with a smile on your face :)

Saturday, March 26, 2011

Saturday cough

When a sore throat starts to get better, the dry cough makes life miserable. Hubbs been getting cough attacks mostly in the evening.. so sleep schedule is all messed up.

Just finished making some methi malai mutter and imli chole for dinner. Hubbs had vegetarian pho for lunch. He has been surviving on soups, pho, noodles and rice and lentil curries. Some additional recipes and updates on the recipe blogs fb page.

A 15 minute stop to sign all new petitions on PETA and ASPCA, find all petitions here .. done for the day. Time to prep for some bread and then dinner! Oh and also switch off the lights at 8:30 pm today!

Friday, March 25, 2011

Sunny Friday

Its a sunny Friday.. Though the weather prediction for the evening and the next 7 days is showers with some sun breaks.. Atleast today Friday is sunny!.

The usual day. writing to people who want pets and pointing them to the rescues near them with clear information about the dogs they want. Some of the CA peeps are just weird.. they'd rather get an unfixed and unhealthy puppy from a pet store(puppy mill) , so they can start young and also have one litter before fixing the dog, so their kids can see the miracle of birth.. jeez.. adopt a pregnant dog or cat from the shelter! esp since in CA the kill rates are as high as 60%. and shelters are overflowing with 500s of pets.. not just 10s or 20s.

Reading up on recipes too. This whole week went in a lot of soups and cooking every few hours... Sick hubbs=lots of food:). Thinking of what to do with the leftover feta cheese.. hmm .. i know chewie.. you are always there to finish it.
I feel really bad wasting milk or cheese, because as it is, we are privileged to be eating dairy and though the dairy products in this house are from local and certified humane farms, mostly happy cows.. but still it is a part of the milk which was produced for the calves.. So if the cheese if going to go bad and not consumed, i freeze it in icecubes for chew.

Chewie by the way has his own facebook page, which I recently upgraded with his bip, pictures and videos.. Check his musings out at http://www.facebook.com/pages/Chewie/78911952691

Have a great weekend everyone!

And on a sunnier note

Guilty dog videos!! The 4 legged sweeties with a conscience..






Earthlings - The Vegan maker

http://www.earthlings.com/
EARTHLINGS is an award-winning documentary film about the suffering of animals for food, fashion, pets, entertainment and medical research. Considered the most persuasive documentary ever made, EARTHLINGS is nicknamed “the Vegan maker” for its sensitive footage shot at animal shelters, pet stores, puppy mills, factory farms, slaughterhouses, the leather and fur trades, sporting events, circuses and research labs.

The film is narrated by Academy Award® nominee Joaquin Phoenix and features music by platinum-selling recording artist Moby. Initially ignored by distributors, today EARTHLINGS is considered the definitive animal rights film by organizations around the world. “Of all the films I have ever made, this is the one that gets people talking the most,” said Phoenix. “For every one person who sees EARTHLINGS, they will tell three.”

Full movie below. This is a very graphic movie. Viewer discretion is advised. You must be older than 18 to watch the video. To watch just the trailer please see http://www.earthlings.com/



Thursday, March 24, 2011

Some fun for the sunny day

Doggies waiting and dining with hands and forks! Fun video so I can come back to it on not so sunny days!


Sunny Thursday

Nice and sunny out today and hubbs back at work.. hopefully he is taking good care of his throat..
Chewie barking in his sleep probably at an imaginary bike in his dream. He doesnt like any loud internal combustion engines!
Usual rest of the day.. and one day to weekend!

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

Sometimes

Ignorance is bliss.. I'd really not want to know about the brutalities some people commit on animals and other people.. raping and killing dog in Turkey.. really..

Just one of the days when I wonder, if my slowly increasing tolerance to reading is being used well.
I definitely do need to find some other work. Baking and cooking is not as adventurous right now because my palate is not as happy with too many changes or new things. And the innovative ideas with some little twists which I can handle are quite limited. There are just so many blogs and recipes and data out there, that sometimes sifting through all to find the ones with similar interest is a very time consuming process. Of course, I can pick up something, which will let me have only limited time to indulge in my other interests and hence optimize and choose what I do want to read and know about. But finding one that will keep me interested enough to keep putting in the effort everyday.. is a different ballgame altogether... Software and anything stressful and excessively computer centric , it out of the picture.
My mom would say... adopt a baby.. coz i cant possibly think of having one right now.. well no can do, until i can care for chewie and then some fosters all by myself.. I have like a tenth energy of a normal person.. probably lesser than that.. and a quarter of chewie's.. For every half an hour in the kitchen i have to take one or two 5 minute rest breaks.. dont think this much energy can get me anywhere close to taking care of a kid....

Monday, March 21, 2011

I am freeee...

No one had kept me chained... well except my self.... it just feels like i am free ..

I finally decided to part ways with my counselor.. I was so ready to just go, tell her I am done, and get out of there.. that most likely I didn't even complete my sentences :) I had to call her later to confirm if she got what I meant :) . I had written up a summary of why things are not working, so atleast I stayed till she read it and then I just ran out.. with a feeling of.. I am freee I am free.

The whole talk in circles was getting too exhausting. I did gain some confidence, but things had stopped moving much since the last month. Now, a break and then just follow my own path of good food, exercise and some yoga!

Sleeepy

Had a hectic weekend.. Saturday was cleaning day .. then Hubbs got a sore throat so all of saturday night was spent tossing and turning and feeding him hot water and tea and pills. Hopefully the Get well Tea from Republic of tea is helping.. He is still weak but fever is in control.. lets see how it goes..
Poor chew had to skip a walk, but he didnt mind, probabaly because everyone was bed bound.. He did throw a tantrum later in the day when he saw hubbs moving around.
Weather is all cloudy again after a sunny weekend.. spring...
I do not like my new Valium supply, coz the manufacturing company is different.. The supposed rules for pharmas are very good.. but i can feel the difference.. Pharmaceutical companies.. r u listening?

Friday, March 18, 2011

Bribes..

Anyone who has lived in India, even for a few years knows that Bribes make up the oil that keeps the machinery rolling, even when the machinery doesnt really need that oil..

Sign the Bribe Bandh today to help reduce the corruption! It might sound like an idealistic thought, but if you have ever given a bribe or know of stories of harassment from friends and family.. sign up and maybe this small participation will help!!

WHY PRESSURISE THE INDIAN GOVERNMENT TO RATIFY THE UN CONVENTION?




India is one of the 140 countries that has signed the UN Convention against corruption. But signing alone is of no use. The government is under no pressure to make its anti-corruption laws stricter unless it ratifies the Convention. Its time for all Indians to come together and demand for change.

WHAT WILL HAPPEN IF INDIA RATIFIES THE CONVENTION?


- Politicians and bureaucrats can be jailed for trying to influence courts and cops.
- Politicians and bureaucrats can be jailed for favouring business houses or lobbies.
- Corrupt business people can be jailed for bribing; their companies will be punished too.
- Money earned wrongfully, through corruption, can be forfeited.


Thursday, March 17, 2011

good news anyone??

I seriously need to read some good, happy or just randomly quirky news everyday.. i am a magnet for all things wrong in the world.. the bad stuff just basically gets stuck in my head...

1000 awesome things and some happynews.com every few hours every day! There are good people in the world and they are making a difference!!! As hubbs sez.. you cant dislike the whole human race for some bad people.. my wise hubbs's super wise words..

Happy St Paddy's

We finally cancelled digital cable! Yippie..
It was totally useless for us. I was not watching any programming on it and the only thing we were was the news channels in the morning.. But soon realized that the all the national channels suck.. repeat news, stupid news, and funky movie like camera movements even when the news anchor was sitting in one place.. plus really boring anchors!! Bye bye cnn, msnbc, fox and everything news..

Most of the programming is now available on hulu and other options and movies on netflix.. Time for everything IP..

Happy St Patricks day everyone! dont forget to check out how green(veggie) your alcohol is on http://www.barnivore.com/beer !!

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

spring..

its that time of the year again.. crazy storms and then hot, then cold again.. and crazy allergies
and I am out of options of things to do when the eyes r so cranky.. darn the allergies.
limited reading, writing, or anything else and limited cooking too, coz the balance goes out the window.. so limited periods of standing in the kitchen..
ahh i am bored of listening to books and music... hopefully it will settle down by tomorrow.

Monday, March 14, 2011

Conversations

with therapist...
Me: This current plan does not seem to be working. I want a clearer way to deal with the problem.
Th: So what you are trying to say is, that you want my help in finding a way to deal with the problem
Me: (thinks to self.. have I been talking chinese since the past 4 months?)..... Yes!!
Th: But then you are assuming that you know that the plan isnt working.
Me: Yes, I do not think it is working.
Th: I would disagree with you on that. There are a lot of things you do much more easily now.. (gives example.)
Me: No, not necessarily. I do not find them easy.. (gives several examples.) And it is quite frustrating that a)you do not see that and b)we cannot find another way or plan to deal with it.
Th: So what you are trying to say is, that you are very frustrated about how things are going and you want my help to find some other way.
Me: Yes. I dont think you are helping much by sticking to just one plan, which I have already scratched as not working.
Th: It must be very frustrating then to not have any plan or way to handle the problem
Me: Yes, it is.
Th: Lets talk about why you got frustrated and upset in the last session.
Me: You know what? I am too irritated right now, and you are not giving me any ideas or support. So I will see you next week ( or never.... someone knock me back to my senses)..

Not the exact conversation, but pretty much a gist of what happens when I want answers and a defined plan. It is quite obvious that I need to change the counselor, it just not that easy a task.
A month of so of updating another one with the background, going all over it again, paperwork to connect him with the primary doctor and to the disability insurance and on and on.. And the stress to myself to deal with a new person and place all over again.. blahh.

The simple question why do I need one. I dont really, but this is the only way other than doping up on meds to keep the recovery on track and keep the frustration and depression in check.
life......

Sunday, March 13, 2011

is it just me

who gets so affected by all the problems in the world.. maybe i am just wired to be super emotional.. probably should short some of those wires.
I was just reading an article about what happens to cows in India and how lopsided our views are about it.
I got majorly depressed about so many bull calves slowly starving to death right in front of their mothers. Thats India for you, most people consider active killing of cows a sin.!
I started discussing it with Hubbs, and as he is the one who usually gets my practical and logical brain to work instead of just getting depressed and giving up, we started thinking about the problem.

People are not going to turn vegan overnight and affect the demand for milk enough, and the religious views are also not going to change anytime soon, so there will still be working female cows and starving bulls for a long time.
The state of the bull calves is the most depressing. What about someone helping with being able to sell these bulls to the farmers who need them in rural areas? There has to be demand for bulls somewhere.
It might not be the most ideal life for the bulls, but still better than slowly starving to death.
Still thinking of other solutions and ideas.... and if someone is already doing something about it, do drop a line about it ...

Saturday, March 12, 2011

a prayer for everyone affected by the earthquake

may everyone have the strength to deal with the aftermath and a hope that things settle back to normal soon..

Friday, March 11, 2011

movies..

I cannot watch any movie anymore..!!. All movies these days have cameramen walking or running with the camera.. hey what happened to all the stable camera stands and rails... which already exist in each and every studio.
all movies have too much random loud noise.. even the regular family or romance ones will have some tracks which crop out of nowhere and are usually jarring to the ears, coz the music volume is usually higher than the normal speaking volume.., its a family movie, no one needs to be scared out of their pants by the sound track... with so much technology out there, i still have to resort to volume control every few minutes.
Even the hindi movies are getting crappier and crappier.. the usual song and dance ones which i can possibly watch, are made sooo bad, with such bad stories and bad acting, that I cannot subject myself to the indignity of watching a product like that.

I am sticking to watching local news, because the bigger news channels also fancy the crazy camera movements zooming into the nicely seated news correspondents.. hello.. that guy is sitting.. on a chair.. in a building.. we are not inside a hurricane..
I dont need no cable anymore!. And if anyone throws any more movies at me with unnecessarily added 3-D, i am going to start a petition against the reckless and wanton use of technologies like 3-d, computer generated video gamy stuff etc etc..
One good movie(Avatar, which I couldnt watch once the blue things started hopping in the video game world) does not justify 3-ding the normal nice animated movies or anything for that matter,,, 3D Harry potter or Breaking Dawn.. oh for crying out loud..
blahh
oh apple came out with a sleek iphone.!. sure we'll come out with a similar looking sleek thingamajig.. only this is just a phone, and it doesnt even work very well for normal phone calls.. just riding the current in thing train to nowhere...

Homelessness continues

Hubbs: Where is my wallet
Me: On your bed side table
Hubbs: My wallet is homeless, it doesnt have any permanent location
Me: Babes, your wallet has a place, in the pocket of whichever jeans you wear that day. Its like a consultant. It has a place to call home depending on the job!

Seagulls

Yuck things about today.. I woke up at 5 because of dear spoilt chew, and then couldnt go back to sleep... When my eyes dont get their beauty sleep, they become my spoilt and cranky kids..

The seagulls some days go nuts and circle in the parking lot visible from my window. Anything circling, rotating or any such thing is a big no-no. I have to mentally rewind it to not feel dizzy.. yuckety yuck.

The good thing about today.. I closed the window blinds to stop my peripheral vision from picking up the sea gulls :).
Its not raining.!!. and its fridayyyy..!! And kids in bright clothes in the p-patch garden!!

Thursday, March 10, 2011

All the right reasons

Something goes wrong and we always want a quick fix and try to fix it for all the wrong reasons. Doesnt work!

This time I want to fix my head for the right reasons.

For my dearest, ever effervescent, resilient and adorable hubbs( there are not enough adjectives to describe him).. He deserves to be pampered and he deserves all the breaks and vacations that he wants!

For my passions, things that I cannot do because of silly fears and small bodily limitations..For all the dogs i could be fostering, all the food i could be cooking...

For family and friends, because they care and would love to see me be able to do what I want to do!

The way to any cure is kindness and selflessness!
Be as kind as you can be.....

Wednesday, March 09, 2011

Homelessness

Hubbs read a post on a blog(raptitude) about homeless objects in the house, responsible for clutter. And the way to reduce clutter is to throw away all objects that do not have a permanent home (location)!

And as usual, when he reads some amazing idea, he wants to apply it to something or use the analogy somewhere.. So we start discussing why there is so much clutter in the house and why we do have so many unnecessary things.

So I ask him, Tell me one thing which does not have a home.
Hubbs: what about that bottle of glue on the dressing table
Me: Oh that bottle is just visiting. It will go back home, to the office supplies box, in the white cupboard.
Hubbs: And when is that...
Me: dont know.. eventually... one of us has to pick it up and put it back.. its like guests back home, who dont want to leave when you want them to... unless you explicitly mention so... :D.. Atithi Tum Kab Jaaoge....

Its already wednesday

my eyes are better.. but the whole change in the regular schedule of course upsets me. It is quite boring, if I cannot read or browse or work on my blogs and such. The usual cooking and baking and walking also gets affected. and there is only so much of that i can do.. so its just boring to rest the eyes and listen to books..
oh well
I am getting them back track now and lets see how long they last this time.
I have to take some videos of chewter.. but he keeps sleeping most of the day.. i am going to put a webcam near his crate and get him a channel... the snoozer chew!

Back to bookmarking some recipes to try.. listening to jennifer crusie and updating the blogs.. u all have a fantastic day!

Thinking about people who follow their hearts!

This one is a shout out to people , who stopped what they were doing, figured out what their hearts wanted and started on that path!

Anu, who traded her 6 years of software career to do something about her love for animals, ..who now is a groomer and a future veterinarian( she will be amazing at it)... who rescues strays and finds them great homes!

Arati, who traded her s/w career to go to Whistling woods and now is ready to churn out some intellectual, intriguing and great cinema!

My relatives, Preeti Maasi and my cousin Arijay, who care for the strays in their locality, give them a healthy life, get them fixed so they cannot produce more strays with diseases and who do some other great things that I do not even know of!

To all the people out there, who stop to think and figure out ways to take some time out, to volunteer for causes they care for, who run, swim, bike, climb or do anything to raise cause awareness and to you and everyone else.

Saturday, March 05, 2011

too much reading

last 2-3 weeks i've been stuck to the machine and reading a lot of stuff. A lot for me means some articles and some blogs :)
that got to me this friday with my eyes winging out..,yes they just wing out in some weird direction. and the the eyes co-ordination gets difficult. Both eyes converging a bit and co-ordinating is required for all the reading. . so I am on limited machine reading state since yest and continuing till tomorrow.
more in a day or so. time to listen to another jennifer crusie book.

Thursday, March 03, 2011

Balance

Gotta balance out the horrid news with some good some days..
starting a day with news about Vick, just putting me in a cursing fit and the mood sticks all day!
Read about Hector, one of the dogs rescued from Vick's dog fighting kennels, his story of transformation into a therapy dog here
Now that is one happy ending!
There also some news sites like happynews.com with only happy and good news to cheer you up, or I can always look up puppy albums, or the kid on youtube laughing hysterically !

Time to make some Bhaji Pav and take pics of the Imli chole to put up with the recipe on theother blog!

Wednesday, March 02, 2011

morning conversations

Hubbs " Chewie, did you eat your food"
Me "Yes"
Hubbs " Chewie, did you eat your almond"
Me "Yes, dont give him another one, he will get fat"
Hubbs "Time for your walk, Are you wearing your harness, chewie"
Me " No Its near his crate , or on the bed"
Hubbs "Chewie, where are you, lets go"
Me "He is sitting here waiting for me to finish breakfast, just in case I drop something"

Reading some dog blogs and trying to get out of funk caused by the perennially grey weather! I should seriously move out of Seattle when I am able to travel far!!

Monday, February 28, 2011

Vitamin or Aspirin

Monday is counselling day and I usually get exhausted by the end of the session. I was reading the The Heath Brothers Column in Fast company, the other day and some of the analogies they used for successful books and products applies to counselling as well.

Counselling, esp Psycho-dynamic therapy is like a Vitamin. Vitamins are not necessarily needed and they might not necessarily cure the problems, but they might help the body in a way that the problems either might not happen or might be easier to deal with.

The meds for anxiety are more like aspirin. Aspirin can cure the immediate pain, but cannot solve the source of the problem. Also it might not work for pain all the time..

Gotta do what you can do.. And Eat better and exercise!!. Wheres my protein shake!

Sunday, February 27, 2011

blurb of the day

Vegan to carnivore beside him: " Dude, your burger is a crime scene"...

conversations

Conversation with Hubbs
Me: You are so wise babes
Hubbs: Yes I was born that way...

This was after our discussion of how I have the preachy gene. It runs in the family. We can start preaching about each and every topic. You have a problem, we have a solution. A discussion you say, we have our own perspective , which will be vocally told.
On the other hand, we hardly ever practice what we preach, and usually get defensive if preached to.
I know this of myself, so I consciously try not to be as strongly preachy unless I practice it myself. But some things are just difficult to shake off. esp things like having solutions and suggestions to everything even if the other person does not need it. And if someone else does the same thing to me, I get a bit irritated.

Hubbs sez: You should not get irritated about it, unless you stop doing the same to someone else.
I know, working on it .. My wise hubbsy....

Saturday, February 26, 2011

flip flop

Eyes are yucky today and hence the balance is amazingly off on the left..
I am walking like that toy, which transfers its weight to each leg, but one leg is shorter, so it compensates.. flip flop flip flop.. of course i hate the feeling of being so off balance that I might just fall on one side. Usually I stop before that happens. Just sit and stabilize and start again. time to rethink about trying a gandhari...

Morning mess

Green Mung Daal all over the kitchen counters and floor.. bad daal packets.!

Chewie is not interested in the clean up.. good for him. I dont know what the raw daals will do to his tummy!
Clean up and cooking time. Lunch ..Cauliflower and Potatoes with crispy Cilantro tempering and Nigella seeds(Dhania Waale Aloo gobi). Fennel(Saunf) and Nigella seeds(Kalonji) are my current faves to temper most veggies. Tried Brown Rice Dosas yesterday.. turned out decent! Plain white rice is not much fun anymore, too much sudden sugar high.. not fun for me!

I know I sound like a finicky eater.. You would be too if you had deal with jitters coz of the food and nausea pretty much everyday..
Hey, I am sure some of you remember how much cantaloupe(kharbuja) i consumed in the hospital.. probably 2 a day, everyday... eat what works!

why is it

That out of the 12 perfume samples, the one you eventually think you really like and then get the bigger bottle, .. you end up not liking it anymore..

That just when you start packing up the heavy coat and sweaters, theres a snow storm!

That the minute you look away, the tea boils over..:)

Note to self: Hubbs needs a lesson in lentils, types, shapes, names, split, skinless etc etc

Friday, February 25, 2011

singers in the building!

One of our several neighbors recently got some singing game. And every other weekend there is some really bad and loud singing happening.. Its not that audible in the house but sometimes I think they leave their windows or balcony open.. save me from the loud tuneless singing...good lord..

Miss sis's kinect is finally up and running. Now we just have to wait and see how much she uses it ;)

Its sunny and super cold and chewie is sleeping away in the sun with all his feet in the air.
I am super hungry now coz hubbs is late from office and my lunch timing got pushed.. foooooodddd.

Lunch time... Have a great weekend y'all!

Thursday, February 24, 2011

Snowy Thursday

A bit jittery and depressed today..
Every random friend I look up , I only see their normal, happy and pretty lives. Kids, jobs, vacations..
I should probably stop looking people up:) And not everyone shares the downs if any. Thats what we do best.. Share the joys and hide the suffering.
I should get back to planning my bread and writing to people about pet adoptions and such..! Gotta keep myself occupied even if its not all fun!. One of those days when I have to snap myself out of feeling yuck.. very few of these type of days.. but there are some...

Chewie, come here and give me a hug! I still have this fluffy sleepy hugger and a cute hubbs who will be here to shower me with more hugs soon.. And I am still doing much more than so many people who have the capability to, but choose not to, do some good!

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

The connection

"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind." ~ Dr. Seuss

That is what I try to do everyday..
It is me who is dealing with things most cannot understand, and really just asking for a few changes here and there to make me a bit comfortable is not a big deal! I have to be a bit selfish about it, because I dont really get anything by being adjusting and pushing myself to the brink. I just start dreading the situation more, instead of building up a positive experience that I can handle it.

I now have this connection with hubbs, which sometimes can be misinterpreted as him listening to each and every thing that I say.
It is just that we are more attuned to each other, or rather he is to me, because I need him to read me more than he does. If I am uncomfortable about some thing, all I need is a quick one word and he gets exactly what needs to be done.

Some months back I would have these days when I just couldnt talk more than a few words at length. I would be too anxious and would want to just breathe and calm myself down. Talking disrupts my breathing process, if I am deliberately trying to breathe. And just understanding this point ...

My indication to hubbs would be either a volume or a time out word or hand gesture(T) and thats it. but the same conversation with anyone from home would be like
Me: Cant talk right now, give me a few minutes. Timeout
"what do you cant talk. what do u mean time out"
Me: give me a minute
"ok , lets breathe together. But why cant you talk? stop showing me the time out T"
Me: 1 2 3 breathing
"everyone breathes while talking. Why cant u"
Me: T for timeout. I will be fine in another minute.
"Ok, lets eat then"
Me: cant do
"why cant you eat now?"
Me: T
"stop being so anxious"
Me: rolls eyes and begs hubbs to get things to calm down :)

Then later, after a half an hour of explanation, no questions for a few days, and then the questions again. I know it is difficult to accept something which appears so bizarre. The point, it is bizarre for me too. But I cannot question it, I just have to accept it and deal with it... and so does hubbs... and when I cannot communicate/talk... he, is my connection to the world, my passage, my language, of communication..

Brrr.. and WA vs CA

It is cold today.. no snow yet.. and even if it does snow, it wont stick around for more than a few minutes.

I finished up writing to most people on WA CL, pointing them to the breeds, types and other preference pets they wanted. So I moved to CA, mostly LA and orange county right now.

Here are my observations about differences in both the states
- Both WA and CA have a fairly large pet population and an equally high rate of pets being dumped.
- Shelters in LA have upto 500 animals, more puppy mills and just about a big chihuahuas explosion. WA has a variety of breeds in shelters
- Wa is much more tech savvy i.e more people on craigslist and other sites and also more open to adoptions from shelters
- Down south, for some reason people are quite averse to adopting from shelters, even with the high population of pets, more choice and super low adoption fees ($30 for a dog!!). You will never find any shelter or rescue in WA with that low an adoption fee, probably because they are Not as over populated.
- The LA and OC county shelter scene is just down right depressing with huge numbers of crammed up dogs , cats and other critters.
Wish I could do more to reach all those people who do want to adopt in and around CA.

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

Snow in Seattle

It is snowing on and off since the afternoon.. hmm can I wish for some accumulation and a snow day ;)
My blood sugar level goes low every 2 hours because I was eating such less quantities per meal.. all because of the stupid stress. The quantities are slowly getting decent now, but I can still feel the need to eat every few hours, not because I am hungry, but because I know my sugar is going down. I have got to add more protein to my diet! And I still have to figure out how to be calm enough to "eat" when I have visitors. That definitely throws off my eating schedule!

Time to gobble up some freshly cooked Achari Aloo and Yellow Daal Fry!

Snow again?

Thats what the local weather news says.. who knows..
lets wait and watch.

Hubbs thinks that my 7 grey hair are because I am taking my blogs and spamming work too seriously.. hmm...time to chill today i guess ;) And research on some high protein breakfast options.. I cant drink the protein shakes in the morning.. and I am not a fan of tofu in any form.

Monday, February 21, 2011

Found another white hair

thats 7 now.. Hmm looks like I am stressed about some other more defined things:).. or maybe these 7 were always there and I am noticing them now.

When I started my Masters in champaign, a third of my hair turned white after the first semester and some of the hair were half white and half black. I could figure out when the semester has become stressful by the length of the white ones:) I started coloring soon after that, so I dont know if all were ever black again. I did love the highlights and the burgundy browns on me then.

Then post surgery, I had an inch of hair and I dint know when i would be able to color it. But lo and behold, all the hair that grew out was nice jet black. hmm, I guess the education and the job stress is the type that will give you premature grey hair!

My current anxiety since the past 4 years hasnt really changed the hair.. so its definitely the crazy college and job stress!

Time to make some chili green beans and blueberry compote and think up some high protein pancake recipes.

Sunday, February 20, 2011

Sunday and my all purpose distractor

Sunny Sunday too! And my eyes are still bothered by the light.. Its all because of the heightened state of stress... All my sensory inputs are edgy and easily bothered.. loud noises, harsh lights, strong smells.. I dont like any of these.

Got a bit depressed at the excessive news about mushers and businesses starving dogs to death.. so i called upon my all purpose distractor .. hubbs... the other some purpose distractor was sleeping away cozily in his tiny den. Hubbs always finds a positive outlook to each situation! and that is just so cool!!

Back to writing blogs and listening to Jennifer Crusie .. to keep my crazy hyper creative head occupied!

Saturday, February 19, 2011

Sunny Saturday

it is so bright that its hurting my eyes.. yes, thats what happens to seattleites when its gets nice and sunny after a few grey days.

The anniv gift code word "chocolate bread" for sis reached. We actually sent them an xbox+kinect.. i dont think it has sunk in yet. She asked me if we were sure we sent it for them :D

time to get the cleaning started and then later write up on Bringing Fido home series-the first few days on the other blog!

I dont know why I dread the house cleaner so much. Probably coz of the amount of noise involved in the cleaning and it goes on for about 2 hours. I should probably get them to come on random days for just half an hour.. but i dont think it will work very well that way.. uhhh. Just anoher more hour..

Friday, February 18, 2011

Sleeping chew

Started with a sunny day today with some kiddies in the p-patch again.. its grey now but hopefully will clear up by tomorrow!
Chew is sleeping away on the futon in the den, near hubbs desk. He is becoming hubbs dog coz he goes for long runs to the park with him. I m thinking I should adopt a really lazy lap dog for myself.. but I have to keep the spot open for fostering later.
2 dogs is a lot to handle in my small home and 2 hands :)

Weekend plans.. house cleaning.. :) , chewie bath and brush , and drives!
currently listening to Jennifer crusie - Bet me.

Thursday, February 17, 2011

Getting a message across

is so difficult if you cannot spend time networking and increasing your reach to similar thinking audience..

produce decent content. but no one might be reading it.
reach out to and read other content, but it takes a while to find the content you really like.
be constantly out there and use all possible means... and you might or might not make much of a difference.

Whatever it may be.. food blogging, beauty gurus, youtube sensations, activists.. everything sure is a big effort.

But The point here is to not get intimidated by the immenseness of the effort.. the point is to start and make an effort.. small one.. tiny one.. any one

Its all about the starfish effect. A person walking along a beach after a big storm. As he walks he stops and picks up starfish that had been washed ashore and tosses them back into the ocean. Another person comes along and says, “Why are you even bothering to do that? There are so many that you’ll never make a difference.” The first person bends down, picks up another one, tosses it to safety and says simply, “It made a difference to that one.” This story is from http://iloverescueanimals.org/2009/05/the-starfish-effect/

Have a great sunny and cheery day u all!

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

You know its spring when

there are happily shrieking and yipping tiny kids in the p-patch(community garden) downstairs..

As the weather gets warmer and sunnier.. every wednesday or thursday, a bunch of kids come in a line and then start running around and shrieking in the garden and the lawn! :) they r a bunch of cuties on a sunny day!

I was going through a cousins wedding album who recently got married. All weddings so end up in the Bidayee(sending of the bride) and everyone cries even if they are going next door :) . Thats an indian wedding for ya. I remember my own wedding and I dint cry till I was already in the car and the car started moving away. I think then it hit me, oh god I am married!.. and then i dint stop for 2 days. I have no clue why :) Just the whole event, occasion and people's emotions around you I guess..

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Rain and storm

Rain and storm since yesterday here.. Chewie dint want to go out because he was getting blown away .. poor baby..
gotta write up some more recipes.. and do more spamming.. some people do appreciate my suggestions so that is really nice..!
and read up some more food blogs and so on

Monday, February 14, 2011

Adopt a Pet in India!

There is a petfinder to find adoptable dogs in India too.

Not too many cities on it, but its a start.

I'll try make a list of rescues in major cities.!

Cruelty free Options in India

For cruelty free or vegan alternatives to daily use products and foods, restaurants etc please see


More information of new products on the market and discussions can be found on the Indian Vegan facebook page http://www.facebook.com/group.php?gid=375742900469&v=wall

Sunday, February 13, 2011

Thanks to peeps for visiting

Thanks to Jo Ru Vi Ni and Mo :D

Keep visiting.. it helps to make new neural pathways of happy and positive experiences..
And that relaxing tea did help ;) I am going to keep a good stash in the house!

Time now to listen to some Arcane Society Series book and think up some other breads to bake, blogs to read and plans to make for the week. Good nite.. See you all tomorrow. Have a great Valentines day y'all.

Cruelty free Options in the USofA

Here are some cruelty free and mostly vegan products and brands that we use and some we have tried at home
  • Toothpaste: Toms of Maine, Kiss my Face, Jason
  • Soaps: Hugo Naturals, Burts Bees, Kiss my Face, Toms of Maine, wholefoods local vegan bars
  • Shampoos and Conditioners and hair products: Avalon, Jason, Yes to Carrots, Burts Bees, Organix, Paul Mitchell
  • Face wash, moisturising creams, scrubs: Burts bees, Queen Helene, Beauty without cruelty, Avalon, Jason
  • Cosmetics: Urban Decay, Mary Kay, Afterglow.. complete list here http://www.leapingbunny.org/color.php
  • Home Cleaning, Dish, Laundry, Bathroom, Carpet: Method, Seventh Generation.
  • Chewie's grooming: Paul Mitchell. Halo
Whenever you think of getting any of your usual daily use products.. think about chewie or coco, living life in a tiny lab, and high concentrations of products being out in their eyes and on their skin,, till they go blind or die of the pain.

Animal testing is totally obsolete and unnecessary. There are several alternatives like testing in a tiny petri dish of cells..to ensure the safety of products. Read about them here. http://caat.jhsph.edu/ or here http://www.livingcrueltyfree.com/alternatives-to-animal-testing/

Complete guide to shopping cruelty free http://www.leapingbunny.org/shopping.php

less talking day..

today is one of those days.. when i cannot process much talk.. other peoples talk that is..

no hindi movies today i guess.. too much shouting and too many characters..

arati and all the other budding directors... if you are reading this.. can u stop the hand held camera fad.. i cant watch 95% of the movies coz of the camera movements.. remember all the good old suspense, mystery or action movies.. all were so good without the need to use the camera movement to create the suspense.. was all in the story and the music..! blah!

Saturday, February 12, 2011

Alternatives

Alternatives to things like

Circus... a bad place, where wild animals are kept in tiny cages and tortured to do unnatural things..

Go for a safari and see those animals in a natural environment.

Seaworld... and other aquatic parks.. same as circuses. Can u imagine having just 50 sq ft to live in all your life..

Go for whale and dolphin tours.. You will see the same tricks.. but in a happy and free big ocean.

Snake charmers.... snakes taken out of their natural habitat every year, and their teeth yanked out.. and they eventually die a slow death or end up as handbags.

Go to florida everglades.. There are enough snakes, gators and other reptiles to last you a lifetime of reptilian watching pleasure.

The Cost in most cases will be the same for the alternatives to us..
But the cost to the animals is way different...

Last year this month

I was fostering pretty much non stop. We had another dog in the house with only a week's break between 2 fosters.. Every weekend we would be at adoption events scattered to about 30 miles away and for all afternoon. Most of the fosters got adopted in 2-3 weeks. Last year this month, I was running behind fosters who got out of their collars, dealing with excessive humping and dogs pooping in my coat pocket.

Last year this month, we were also going for short hikes(super short hikes) but they were hikes .. pretty, green and fun.

Last year this month I was reading about dog training and behavioral issues, sometimes attending orientations, and planning some dog behavior training classes..

This year this month... i am still stuck in seattle. My driving radius is 4-5 miles. Though I am a bit calmer and finding some thing that work.. It still sucks to see the graph..

Oh well.. there will always be random crap here and there. Gotta deal with it and keep moving forward..
I still have the same loving hubby from last year this month.. same fluffballl chew, who is probably a bit more spoilt this year.. same cozy house and some nice fresh breads! some other things to do, the spamming and spreading the adoption word, a new blog.. and some slow plans towards a calmer, meaningful life!

Friday, February 11, 2011

High protein Diet

ahh well.. my naturopath made me write up a diet diary for 10 days, analysed it and told me to double my protein in my current diet... everything else is fine.. just the protein to carb ratio is a bit low.. so i have got to stuff some tofu down my non tofu liking throat..

oh well.. i think i like beans, nuts, cheese and quinoa better. Will just eat more of all that.

I also have to increase b-12 intake..

I dont know if he is just throwing around a bunch of ideas or there is more to it. But some extra protein and vitamins is much better than trying 10 other meds and their side effects!

Gotta increase my appetite first.. the stress takes almost all of it away..


frigid friday

it was cold in the morning today.. getting warmer now..

trying to decide if I want to call my house cleaner tomorrow or not.. its like a day thing, she comes and makes a bunch of noise.. all the hurry to finish up.. the house is usually inaccessible for the 2 hours.. and it just not fun.
Though I love the eventual outcome of the nice deep cleaning of each and every corner of the house.. I definitely have to find a way to get more comfortable with the whole event.

And mostly I dont feel like doing anything else on the day of the cleaning, coz it is soo stressful already and i like the weekend to be nice and light..
oh well.. small things i have to deal with.. which might not even register on a normal persons schedule.. almost like background noise... not so for me..

on a good note.. Yayy its friday.. weekend almost here...

Thursday, February 10, 2011

curl up and sleep

one of those days when I dont want to put up a brave front and just curl up and sleep hopefully with hubbs warmth besides me..

hubbs is quite warmed up though after his recent heated meeting..:)

The funniest ever conversation was between hubbs and my dad some time back. They both had different points and were explaining it exactly the same way again and again. After about 4 times I said, either one of you agree to the other, or use a different path or explanation ..:D

eyes still sandy.. but i m so bored of just listening to the current book....

Made some chocolate cashews (&oats) cup cakes... shh dont tell hubbs.. there r oats in them...

blah eyes

another day of crazy congestion.. and bad shadowy vision eyes and blah balance..
more book listening today..
i love the sun.. but i hate the seasonal blah coz of the sudden change from dreary grey to bright sun and then back again.. i should either move to alaska or to the tropics..with mostly the same weather all through the year.

Wednesday, February 09, 2011

Too much typing

on the laptop, i think is causing the pain in my left hand.. time to set up a better arrangement if i am going to be typing so much..
sunny wednesday... and sis wants me to send her my chocolate bread with a friend travelling back.. so gotta make one!

back to listening to Marcia Muller's sharon mccone series...

Tuesday, February 08, 2011

PTSD

6 in every 1000 americans is war vet. 1 in every 5 of them has gone through severe post traumatic disorder.
Why do some people get it and some dont? Its just the way our brains are wired, some genetics, other circumstances before and after, family support, other stresses ..

My counselor thinks, that I have to revisit my traumas and stresses and accept them and I keep oscillating between if I really want to or just move forward. There are several ways to deal with and get over anxiety. I dont know what will work for me in long term. So the quest continues and trials and errors and some peaks and some troughs..

Whats working - Keeping myself occupied, exercise, breathing and tai chi right now..

Monday, February 07, 2011

Get back to work.. but what?

Every few months, there will be friends I will get in touch with after a long time, and the first thing most want to know is when I will get back to work.. quite an innocuous question, since most dont know what i have been upto.. but..

What work really.. I have quit software a long time ago because of several reasons like my eyes' limited capability to stare at a monitor for hours and a general loss of passion for it.

And to be able to keep myself motivated to do something else, I really need to be passionate about it.
When I started baking, my eyes would give up after a few days, or my stamina wouldnt let me do the kneading required, but i kept going, with breaks and bad dizzy spells and all.

I started fostering, and with the first dog, after a few days, I crashed again, energy and eyes. But i knew from experience that a day or 2 rest and i can be back at it again. And so it went.

I cant force myself to work s/w or some other random job and deal with the balance issues, eyes, dizzyness and so on, if there is no motivation. because I need that motivation, that passion to be able to deal with the problems the job can cause or increase. Just think about it, if you cannot sit in a boat for more than a minute, will you take the job as a boat operator? Unless, you really really love water and boats.

thats just the way it is..

Me the spammer..

Well not really..

I have taken to writing to wanted ads on CL and other places pointing them to rescues and their preferred types of dogs and cats near them.

When initially i told hubbs about it, he I can just send them the petfinder main link, but after going thru the nanny interviewing process I have realized that everyone is not that net savvy and even if they are, it is a not a intuitive process for everyone to figure out a site like petfinder and a bit of a time consuming process to search on petfinder.com

So I send them the links with the searches, or sometimes the rescue pages and specific dog links as well.

Out of 20 mails I send, i get about 6-7 replies back and 4-5 of them are always nice and mention how they did not know about it and how it is nice to know about the rescues. And that definitely makes my day. Of course, there are always some who are rude and do not like the free advice.. but thats part of the job.

Its a sunny day today and now I am back to writing up mails and trying to optimize the whole process. After all I do have some s/w roots which automatically try to automate or optimize repetitive things ...

Also, most foster programs these days require you to foster dogs only for 2-3 weeks. Let me know if anyone is interested in fostering and i can point you to the rescue that will work for you.

Friday, February 04, 2011

Friday again!.

Friday is always a fun day.. coz its right before a weekend!

Its quite grey out today.. and chewie is as usual sleeping snuggly on the comforter.

I finished updating the food blog and the pet blog and finished writing to wanted pets craiglist ads for the day..

Time for some exercise, chewie play and tiramisu!

And for peeps who are wondering how hubbs understands the compassionate side.. its all because of chewie. The cute fluffball. Can you imagine his cuteness being shut in a tiny cage, kicked and not cared for, killed and eaten, or skinned alive for his soft fur? , or put in a lab to test stupid products on his eyes, hair and all over outside and inside his body? Puts things in perspective, doesn't it !

Thursday, February 03, 2011

more..

Got some flowers.. red tulip and purple iris from Hubbs parents and family!
Got some tiramisu cake and cheesecake from my family!

We were going to head to Isadora Vintage jewelers in Pike place when the car died..
So we got a new battery for the car!

Now time to make some methi aloo and methi malai paneer mutter!

Hope u all are having a fun day.

Celebration or not..

This last year, I have started dreading birthday and anniversaries.. why?..
coz a. you dont really need any gifts really apart from good health and good life..
b. Anyone who wishes u automatically asks about anything special you are doing that day.. and for me special is just chilling and doing whatever I want, not really going out to celebrate or shop, coz I am not comfortable doing all that yet.

So if nothing, then we just donate the gift money and shop online ;)

So we are sponsoring Ernesto , a senior Pug at Old Dog Haven ! He is a the bottom of the Final Refuge page.

Got CupCake Royale cupcakes delivered inthe morning and now getting a Kinect for Hubbs!

Wednesday, February 02, 2011

A day to go..

for the anniversary... Celebrating 6 years together.. Lots of love coming your way hubbs... you are the sweetest and the bestest...

It was a sunny day today.. started with some chocolate chip multigrain pancakes.. I think morning i the only time actually like chocolate...

The things i miss in this house .. is a sound proof room.. :)

The things generally miss the most.. driving and heels..
I know they sound like a bit unimportant in the bigger picture of what all I can and cannot do right now. But the point is, that if I can walk in heels and drive myself.., it means there would be so many other things I would already be doing.. and I will be on the way to life I can call somewhat normal..

random thoughts and the rambling for the day..

The journey

We have obviously established that there is a bit of PTSD responsible for the return of my anxiety.

It is quite obvious to me too that someone who suddenly has to go from extremely independent and in control to a almost completely dependent and in no control at all, will have some problem dealing with the change.

But I did deal with it in between very well for 2 years, then why did things go south again. I am hoping to find a permanent solution to things this time and not just letting time heal...

Moving forward and forgetting about things does help, but is not a permanent thing... Stuff always comes back in different shapes and forms and I need to be able to deal with it..

Tuesday, February 01, 2011

A state of being

Being a Compassionate human being or Vegan is not really activism, aggression, fanaticism or shoving ideals down your own and everyone else's throat.

It is just a state of being, a state of consciously making a choice, a state of knowing. As human beings, we have been endowed with this complex and unlimited capacity brain and we use only a part of it.

It takes some time to transition into the compassionate state, but once you are there, things just fall into place. If I stop at every automatic action for a few seconds and think about how that action affects anyone or any living things and then make a decision, that decision will inevitably be compassionate.

Every house cleaning supply automatically picked up at the grocery store.. a stop of a few seconds, and you will look for the kind to animals and the environment options. That one stop, just once..
The diamond ring I want, I stop for a few seconds and I started looking for vintage and recycled options.., who wants to wear a blood diamond on their body! .. That stop.. just once...

A stop.. just once.. a thought.. for a few seconds.. and a state of being..


Monday, January 31, 2011

Monday Sun!

Yup, finally the sun is peaking out of the clouds today.

Hubbs work load went down from the weekend and shockingly he remembered our anniversary day and blocked off his calendar.

The usual monday counselling and thankfully I could speak much more. I usually cannot speak continuous sentences if too anxious, mostly because I am trying to regulate my breathing and speaking gets in the way :) . But even after 6 months, most days I am not comfortable at the therapy. Its one of those places I guess, like a hospital, you can never associate happy memories with it.

Ready to hit the bed now. Brushed chewchew fluff's teeth. Put a reminder to take pictures of the Orange Blueberry bread so I can put up a post on the food blog. Another reminder to film a video of chew's toothbrushing routine to put up on the pet blog! all done..

Sunday, January 30, 2011

Anniversary upgrade!

Its that time of the year again.. though its been 3 years since my last ring upgrade!!
We were doubling the diamond every anniversary for 3 yrs. This feb will be the 6th wedding anniversary!! Yayy for that!!

I was trying to find conflict free diamonds to put on my wedding ring. But though the conflict free diamonds are certified to be not from a war zone. blood diamond, warlords, civil wars. They are most likely canadian, and diamond mining in Canada is not really bound by many laws. And that means destruction of glacial habitats.

I guess I am going to upgrade to a Vintage recycled ring..

Clean self ;)

After a clean house.. its clean self day today.. honey had a long overdue hair cut.. and now a shave.. amazingly he gets irritated by his beard much earlier than I start noticing the shagginess!. Apparently he cant take the itch and the heat!

Met Oscar, the neurotic norfolk terrier on our floor yesterday.. he is like a constantly jumping thing on a trampoline.. hes got so much energy! And the 1 year old kid he lives with has started following his energetic behavior.. the cute plump bundle lets out a shriek of happiness whenever oscar jumps and yips. And that oscar does non stop to get your attention.. jumping and yipping.. and a shriek of joy from the baby,.. then some more jumping and yipping.. Brings a smile to your face..

And also the thought that man, I do not have that kind of energy to deal with 2 yipping bundles of cuteness. :)

We'll get there some day and then have our own yipping cuties!

Time to make some baghare baingan !


Saturday, January 29, 2011

Clean houseee!

Phew, house cleaned after 4 weeks. It feels so good. I think I should call the house cleaner every week... I have to use a translator though and speak in bad spanish :) It would be so much easier if she understood English a bit more

If anyone wants to drop by, it is a clean house weekend!

Early morning!

Good morning! Woke up early today coz i was already getting hunger pangs at 7!
And then mr chew fluff retched up some undigested biscuit.. Time for clean up!

Its a rainy saturday and the house needs a major deep cleaning.. so off we start off.. now if only hubbs has some time off his builds..

Hungry already at 11:30!

Friday, January 28, 2011

Friiidaay!

yeah that time of the week again.. Hubbs is busy with his releases.. and getting all worked up.. then he realizes that all the stuff he reads and tells me to apply, he can apply to himself too..
the time space continuum.. When you step back from the small problems in the bigger time picture or bigger space picture, they are not really that important to cause so much stress..!!

Had my appointment with the PCP today.. so a bit doped up on Valium... It takes some effort to get to the hospital. I should probably move the PCP to the new UW family clinic 2 blocks from home!

Thats the good part about living in downtown. Everything within 5 blocks.!

I remember when Vivek had his knee surgery in Oct 2009 and was not driving for a week and I needed some stuff on the 4th day. I was so tired, I was sleep walking and the stress and the tiredness meant I couldnt have driven a car without risking a dizzy spell. But I walked 4 blocks and found a Rite Aid!
Seems like that was a different life..

Thursday, January 27, 2011

Foggy Thursday..

Woke up late to a fog here in a seattle. And my mind was also foggy. I usually am in a bad mood if i dont get good sleep in the night.. And thats how last night was. I have no clue why.

And then the stupid fire alarm testing started. The test was supposed to be only in the lobby, but started in the house too. I made hubbs call the concierge to check, coz i would have blasted his ears for the morning annoyance. and sure it was a mistake.. as usual!

Now the rest of the day finally starts.. write up the pet of the day   and bringing Fido home series on my other blog. Read up posts from my foodie blog roll. a lot of breads and some amazing new dishes. Facebook, twitter, news... youtube videos.. recipes.. exercises..

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

Look at the positives!

Is such a difficult thing. People like me, need to constantly find something positive, to motivate them to get out of the funk. And what do I do? I read a piece of news about some person or animals getting hurt or abused somewhere and get upset and back into the funk.

Isn't it amazing how everything we humans do whether in the name of entertainment, fun, romanticism or beauty.. always hurts someone else...

So either I shut down my hyper feelers and use ignorance and out of sight out of mind to just see all the happy stuff in the world .... to self.. hello .. probably quite  impossible.

Or Use that to motivate myself to make some small efforts to help some of those who are hurt. And I know there are a lot of us out there, constantly striving to make a change, find ways, to reduce the hurt and the pain. That is what is a much bigger motivation. I know of these hurts, because someone found out about them, someone made an effort to get them out there, someone started a small movement to find solutions and alternatives, someone like you and me questioned it.

We, with our big brains, cannot claim ignorance and live in our own bliss. We, will have to reply to our own heart some day. That day, will you be at peace with yourself?

Sunny Wednesday

Its sunny in seattle today. I am sounding like a weather blog!
A big Yay for Mom and Dad taking time to read my blogs.. though most of it is such blabber that they probably think that I am going nuts :D:D

I realized some days back that I get too aggressive when I talk about topics that I am passionate about.  And I want to blabber a whole big deluge on information onto anyone who is listening.. Cant help it.. Sometimes people just have not been given that kind of information. So its difficult to just stop and prioritize what message you want the person to get, instead of the message just getting lost in the humongous amounts of blabber.  
Its quite a difficult challenge for sure.. Thats why a lot of the very passionate activists end up getting a bad name. We all have that passion, but not everyone understands our point of view. So we have to stop and think as the other person and then give them more than one reason to agree with our thinking.. phew..

Oh yeah, If you do encounter me in one of the information explosion modes, wait for a few minutes.. I will be back to normal and logical speaking in a few .:):)
Thats one thing we both have, hubbs also has information explosions in his head and only some of it gets out, when I get the explosion, most of it gets out, but I get too hyper in the process. In both cases, I think the main point does not always get across!

My passions..
Please dont buy or breed pets, while shelter pets die. 6-8 million pets are euthanized each year. Thats more than 20,000 per day!
Be kind, whether it is food or anything that you use, look for things that have not caused pain and suffering to anyone in the process of getting to you.

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Analogies

I was thinking about some ways to get me and my counselor on the same page and decided to use analogies. Since she loves to use them while explaining her point.. but usually she takes a bit too long and i get impatient :)

Its like I am learning to swim in a pool and am scared of water, and she is my trainer, but she is always on the pool side, never inside the pool. If she cannot even extend her hand a bit to help me and get a tiny bit of the water splashed on her in the process, then I dont know if she will ever be able to understand. It also indicates too much indifference I would think..

Do counselors and other doctors like surgeons eventually exhaust their supply of understanding, sympathy and empathy.. ? because of their constant exposure to so much pain every day every hour.. and hence the indifference?

Monday, January 24, 2011

A World apart!

Here I am trying to to talk about being compassionate and kind, knowing what you use and eat everyday how it affects other living things, and looking beyond my own selfish existence and a conversation back home at relatives place goes like "Fire the kaamwaali (dish cleaning lady) coz she is a Harijan (Dalit)". Duuhh.. reallly

Decisions decisions

Its raining again.. and I keep getting doubts about my counselor. Sometimes we are just on such a different page, that we are not even on the same book.

Will think about that a couple more weeks down the line. Gotta get my PCP appointment done and out of the way.. then we will have some holistic Yoga sessions...  Ooommmmmm.. :)

Oh well, the breathing exercises do help to calm you down. Regular breathing exercises also help with the allergies. At least they do help me. Otherwise the sinus congestion and headaches are just bad!
The irony of the situation is, mom taught me all the exercises and mom and sis were doing it then and would badger me into doing it. Now they have all become lazy about it and I keep telling them to pick it up! :D

Sunday, January 23, 2011

Taking a weekend off!

I took this weekend off from all my regular plans and things to do or try. Most days esp weekends usually end up getting filled with some or the other plans.
No not really any big plans like normal people. No big parties.. no long drives:)

Plans for me are just simple things like being able to go for a drive and increase the radius by a couple of blocks, or be able to go to the grocery store and get something, or be able to walk chewie more than 2 blocks, or be able to have people over. All the things that you never ever think about because they are just a natural schedule, become a big thing for me to handle.

So until we can figure out whats causing all the crazy anxiety.. its small steps to get used to each and every small thing.. small steps to get back to a semblance of a normal life.

Its so difficult to take the weekend off and do nothing, because obviously I do nothing most of the other days as well. But what I now know about myself  is that The person who is the hardest on me, is myself. I apparently expect too much out of myself. I better give myself a break. As breaks are quite refreshing.

Money, money, money

is the one thing that make me super uncomfortable.. I just cannot deal with money issues..

That is probably a big reason why I married a Marwari.:):) He takes care of the numbers!

Where the numbers are coming from, where they are headed, where to save, what to manage..
People defining you by how much you get home, relatives and friends envy or pity, fights, yours and mine..
the world just keeps revolving around it..
Its understandable in a way, because a lot of us come from a background of hard work, limited spending and limited privileges. But when it becomes an obsession, to get more and more,  its just not right.

I think i have a phobia of this obsession. I have seen too many obsessed people who cannot think logically and prioritize the important things..

There is so much more to life and happiness..

Friday, January 21, 2011

Its that day of the week again!

And I finally remembered to fix my Recipe Index on the cooking blog ! Heres the index now!
http://hobbyandmore.blogspot.com/p/recipe-index_21.html
Chewie is sleeping away beside me. I can hear his calm and regular breathing. He is such a cuddle bug. His hair is growing away to fluffdom and he needs a good brushing this week to remove the tangles!
What next.. make facebook pages for the blogs.. I think I am gonna get the wrist pain again. I need to find a good office chair( the one without wheels) and sit in the home office on the ergonomic keyboard.. 


I like it when hubbs gets in touch and responds almost immediately. of course dont like it, if there are any delays in meetings, elevators and people not letting him go! He is my safe person after all!

Thursday, January 20, 2011

6 pm on a thursday

I am trying to keep myself occupied these days.. So people might keep getting disturbed on chat:)

Reading up. writing on all 3 of my blogs, thinking of things to write, thinking of things to bake. and so on.

Its a grey day again today.. who am I kidding.. Seattle has more than 300 grey and or rainy days! bleh.

Listening to Jayne Anne Krentz- Truth or Dare today.  and baking some russet potatoes..

Walked chewie in the cold and now my balance is off.. another bleh.. these random changes in weather just dont gel well with my sinuses. Time to move to Alaska or CA with mostly the same temperatures all year round!

I tried to watch Idol yesterday. but my nerves are too edgy to deal with the really bad singers.. I'll wait till they have the final good ones...

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Maybe Sun does matter!

It sunny here in Seattle today..

Yesterday was a horridly grey day after a number of grey and rainy days.. And I was ready to snap at anything. One of those days when you get irritated or frustrated at just about anything and want to break something!:)

I remember once trying to bread an old chipped plate by throwing it in the garbage bin. Yeah coz who will clean up the mess if i throw on the floor:D. It dint break. I tried 3 times. Then I gave up, and my irritation had disappeared by then!

Today, I woke up in a surly mood because my sleep was disturbed. But the sun is shining now and the mood is slowly getting better!

Why is it a good day. Coz I got some extra hugs from hubbs in the morning... or coz its sunny.. either way.. lets hope it stays this way!

Gotta make a blueberry orange Bread today... I had some wrist pain yesterday, probably coz of too much typing on the laptop.. :) trying to rest it today .. lets see..

Monday, January 17, 2011

Another week another session!

Monday today!

I started working on the new blog this weekend. Most ideas I get, either require a lot of work out of my comfort zone, or I lose the passion behind the idea really quickly. Lets see how long this one continues. The new blog is http://find-me-a-happy-pet.blogspot.com/ . It is currently a collection of points to go through before adopting a pet, points to help you choose the right pet and then prepare your home and family for the care and a lovely life together!

Now heading to another session with the counselor, who has some weird belief that something happened to me when I was an infant or still in the womb.. hmm.. maybe i should get a different one.. i dont understand psychology anyway. Another thing I dont like about her is how she keeps trying to associate my progress with what I do in the sessions for every small thing. I think thats the problem with psychoanalysis. They want you to stick to them for years to introspect and alter your personality....

Friday, January 14, 2011

TGIF!

Its friday already!
Yay!

Our nanny quit, so we found a new one. I dont even know if it is a good idea. It takes so much time to just get used to another presence in the house and that too someone you dont really know.

Though in the nanny quest, we did find some people who just had this calm and non judgmental presence. Its nice to know that there are people I can be comfortable with out there.

Random thought moment.....
For anyone using "humans are omnivores" argument to completely ignore the ethical implications of eating factory farmed meat. Think of this. Humans are quite the sexually active living beings too, but that does not mean we can use 2 year old sex slaves to satiate that need.  Get the point!

Thursday, January 13, 2011

Pet finder!

Maybe I should become this agent/broker who helps people find best matched pets from the nearest shelters or rescues.

Not sure if anyone is doing that already.

I think a lot of people, even though they do want to adopt a pet, get overwhelmed by the choices or just the idea of meeting 10 dogs at the shelter or any small things esp if it is their first pet.
and then sometimes they will just find a puppy on sale somewhere and buy it, because its just one choice and its a puppy! Not the way to go for sure.

I was committed to adopting, but i remember getting overwhelmed at the shelter and eventually, we adopted chewie after days of search on petfinder.com from a rescue. Not everyone has that kind of time really..

Lets see if I can make something of this idea..


Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Snow here and gone..

It snowed all evening and part of the night yesterday.

I usually like the snow, but the last time it snowed in seattle, life just got stuck for 3 days. Ice on the roads, traffic snarls, people stuck for 10 hours on highways.. Not a happy event to remember.

Nowadays the first hour of snow brings in happiness and beauty of the flurries.. and then the only thing i can think about is how seattle is so ill equipped to handle it. I cant imagine hubbs driving on the slick roads filled with inexperienced drivers.. or getting stuck somewhere and me all alone. He is my safe person. I should probably train a couple more people to be the safe persons...

Luckily, its warm in the morning today and all of the snow is turning into slush.

And we are also going to try some yoga and Tai chi. Soon we will be talking in holistic and therapeutic and yoga jargon!

Sometimes I think, the quest to find answers is like someone trying to stay afloat in the ocean surrounded by dispersed hay, and then grabbing at each of the straws in the hope to make a boat someday!.



Tuesday, January 11, 2011

An old friend and a thick headed brother!

Just connected with a really old friend today. Catching up on old times!

I always wonder why we women dont have these set of old friends, who we can connect with any time after any number of years and continue on. I think we girls end up moving here and there and get scattered after weddings and eventually settle and have to come up with a new set of friends.

And whoever came up with "You cant fix stupid" is a genius. Yes, that's you younger bro.

I have to learn to not be bothered by people who just dont want to open their minds to certain things!. I am too sensitive a person(twing, sudden understanding of self!) and too passionate about some things. (twing 2).

I am so much better than sooo many people :) My happy thought of the day for myself! Note to self: Keep it up!

Monday, January 10, 2011

uggh day!

Work schedule still not settled yet..
second week of hubbs at work.. and my stress is all up there after a nice and calm december.

hubbs got lost in the car garage adding 10 minutes to the usual 4 min of not in touch time.

and the bundle of nerves also has counselling today. which i keep getting doubts about.

ugghh

time to give chewie a hug.. He has changed over the years. He dint like being hugged hard and cuddled. Now he sits and likes being cuddled for hours!

Sunday, January 09, 2011

Keep facing the past or move forward and forget about it

Is the question..

Psychoanalysis keeps making me face the past and the fears. And of course look at it from outside and deal with it.

CBT will make me move forward and learn to deal with things and eventually the positive loops will help me forget it.

But I have tried the forgetting style before, but things always have a way of coming back in different shapes and forms. So better just deal with them!